I Am Planning To Continue Blogging....

    I am planning to continue blogging but I need a normal schedule before I can do so.  Right now I am in orientation for my new job and I do not know how some of you work 5 days a week!!  I cannot wait to be finished with orientation and only working 3 days a week.  Work is just taking up too much of my time and I can't stand that as soon as I get home I have to workout, then shower, then cook, then clean, then time for bed and repeat.  What is the point?! 
     At any rate it will probably be the weekend before I sit down to really blog again because I am just too stressed out right now.  I know, I'm crazy; but it's true.  I realized today that one of the reasons I'm having so much trouble with anxiety the past week is because, I think, this is the first time I have been back in a hospital since Jon's spleen ruptured and nearly killed him at the beginning of the summer.  And then I got caught up in the wedding planning drama.  This is the first time in a long time I've had time to think and it's causing me all kinds of anxiety.  I've always, always had trouble adapting and making changes whether it was the first day of school or first day of the semester, etc.  This has been particularly rough on me and I am hoping it goes away really soon because walking around all day feeling like you can't breathe isn't very comfortable. 
     Yesterday I even skipped working out and came straight home, took a bath and got in the bed and pulled the covers over my head and except for a small snack, didn't get up until this morning to do it all over again.  Today I realized the whole thing about being back in a hospital and I just kept remembering Jon being so sick and how he almost died, etc. and then wouldn't you know it, a pastor came in to talk for an hour about death.  About how the families feel after someone dies, what our views are of death, how the patient feels etc.  There I was already down and boom it all came hurtling at me again.  Some things he shared were very touching and I had tears in my eyes thinking about it all.  And then I drove home in the pouring down rain.
    So I will return to my more entertaining posts........I just need a few days.  And a routine.

Disclaimer

I should have put this first but again, hindsight! :)

     You should know that this blog  isn't what I would call a "cute blog."  I can't say that it won't ever be "cute".  It might, you never know how or which direction something will grow.  But for now this isn't your typical family blog.  In our household we currently do not have: a new baby on the way-biological or adopted; we have not set out on a quest to reach a certain life goal; we do not have any terminal illnesses that we are aware of; we do not have any new pets; we are not survivors of any major disasters nor have we recently experienced any major losses of any sort. 
     I hope that at some point we do have some major life events (positive ones) that I can blog about and share; but until then you're stuck with me telling stories about things that have happened to me that leave me asking "why me?!" or random observations that I find humorous in some way or enrage me.  But the truth is: I can't really say what this blog will ultimately become.
    What I can say is that I am going to refrain from using profanity in this blog, unless it helps to add detail to the particular story.  I am going to refrain from expressing my personal thoughts on politics and religion and all of those other things that get us all upset and enraged and cause arguments.  I am also going to refrain from humiliating anyone but myself.  If I tell any stories about anyone else I aim to show them in their best light; if they did something funny that won't completely humiliate them and I know that they would share the story themselves, I might tell it.  But I am not seeking to dish out information about others that just shouldn't be told.
    I realize that some of you may not always agree with me and that's fine, I get it.  Some of you may not like what I have to say or want to point fingers at the way I say something and again, that's okay.  All of this is meant to be in good fun and taken with a grain of salt.........so don't get your panties all in a wad!  We are all entitled to our opinions and therefore I will likely be expressing mine.  If it differs from yours, it doesn't mean I don't love you still, it just means we are different in some areas and that is okay.  I hope that you will still love me too.  At any rate, this is not my post for the day, this was just something I was discussing last night and felt like I should put out there, a disclaimer for this blog.  In these times where everyone seems to get offended by something all the time.......you just have to put the disclaimer out there!