It feels like an eternity since I got a good night's sleep. Jon is in Boston for one week out of the month now and guiltily I always look forward to sleeping alone, stretching out, but then I realize I have to get up at 5:30 a.m. and go to work and all guilty dreams are shattered.
Does anyone else ever dream of checking into a hotel, getting a massage and drifting off to dream land undisturbed? That is now my dream.
I used to sleep without a television in my room, made a world of difference. And no pets in my bed. No lights, no sounds. Now I sleep in a circus! Many nights I go to sleep with the lights of a computer beside me and tapping sounds of a keyboard. Because even though I can't sleep with these things, I also don't like to fall asleep with Jon in another room, so inevitably I ask him to bring his work or whatever he's doing, into the room and lay beside me until I fall asleep.
Then once I fall asleep I am good for about four hours, then I wake up to go to the bathroom. Then I have a difficult time falling back to sleep and this comes from either hearing Jon breathing heavy or snoring; or sometimes our dog, Sadie, snoring! Then just as I drift off I realize it's almost time for my alarm clock to go off for work and then I get anxious about whether or not I set it, whether or not it will ring, maybe I should just get up, etc. etc. etc!!! Ahhhhhhh!
Anyways, Jon is gone for the night and I just climbed into bed thinking, well since I slept so poorly last night maybe tonight will be my night! But then, Sadie climbed up and curled up next to me. So now I can't stretch out, and yes, she probably intends on sleeping there all night. It's just something she does in the Winter. And I am too in love with her to kick her out of the bed. But at any rate, cheers to dreamland hopefully some day because even though I need sleep I could never trade in Jon or Sadie!
